On the
hill of Careggi we stood outside Ficinos villa watching the storm that
played on Florence. I was in awe of the elements. The sky was rupturing with
light from north to south. Trees were on fire. The whole land seemed under
attack. Ficino reminded me of Plato's myth of the cave, said that what we
were watching was a mere shadow of reality.
I had been working for Ficino for only a few months, but
it had been long enough to dispel the unrealistic awe I had once held him
in. I had grown used to working for a man who was fully human and whose wisdom
was practical. I had also come to realise that Ficino had a sense of humour
that could be engaged at any time. Being told that this storm, quite the most
dramatic I had ever witnessed in this land of storms, was a shadow of the
true reality, I crowed with laughter, and found that my derision amused Ficino.
Surrounded by men who called him master and who treated his every
word with terrifying respect, I believe the philosopher enjoyed my irreverence
and found it a relief. In my heart I was the most obsequious of Ficinos
disciples, but it had become my role to play the part of Everyman - the objector
to wisdom. Standing now in a land which seemed to be inside a drum being beaten
passionately by the gods, and to be told that the realm of the senses is a
shadow of the intelligible world of ideas provoked such fierce
rebuttal that I half-choked on it. In the face of this destruction, Platos
theory seemed preposterous.
Be content, my young friend, it is so, Ficino
assured me, smiling broadly. Look beyond, look behind this reality -
what do you see?
I see fury.
Whose?
Natures.
Indeed. Is our lady not full of wrath? Ficino
asked. As if in response to this, hail began to drive at us; flinching under
the stinging rain, we hurried back inside the house. So what has made
Nature so wild? Ficino asked, throwing a log on the fire and blowing
on his frozen hands.
I was shivering noisily but, in fear of chilblains, I kept
away from the hearth and looked for warmth in the wine jug. It is my
experience that a womans anger usually stems from neglect. While I dally
here in the gardens of philosophy, my Elena is at home sharpening knives.
Have we neglected Nature? Ficino asked, ignoring
the point I was trying to make, but another deafening crack of thunder had
me turning to look out again at the brilliant roots of wrath searing the sky.
I wondered how Angelo was faring in the Mugello, and with these thoughts came
a despair which was not my own. Filled with sudden and inexplicable melancholy,
I told Ficino that I would neglect Nature no longer, that I was going home
to my wife.
Elena will be terrified, alone in all this,
I lied. I left hurriedly, braving the storm to reach my house, the warmth
of my bed and the comforting embrace of my beloved. But it was not Elena who
needed shielding from fear, it was me. As I came down the hill of Careggi,
however, I found that the meadows outside the city had become a sea, albeit
a shallow one. In the dark I could not see where the road was: it was too
dangerous a journey to make on horseback. A man, Florentine through and through,
approached on a boat and offered me passage at a rate undreamt of by a professional
ferryman. I gave my horse over to his boy to return to Careggi and climbed
in, remarking on the transfiguration of the countryside.
This is nothing, said the man. Wait till
you see the city.